where can i put all these crazy emotion

ceci, coz there will be no other people reading this site beside you. and i need a place to put my emotion, boil it like water, convince myself that i can go further and further. i don't wanna stop as long as i start, sacrifice everything is not a problem.

you know who i miss these days? not you, oh i'd better say beside you, haha. i miss nnenna, she looks like Eva in ANTM, and that girl is soo cool, i love her! days i am watching "american's next model", and i am reading a book about the freedom and right in USA. to the extend of my knowledge, i love the spirit of American, NY city, especially.

Hong kong is cutie in foreigner's eyes, also to me, sometimes a bit 審美疲勞, is that why u r in europe? i'm not sure, but that is surely why i envy you, though i understand there r difficult, lonely times for you . See i am not negative this time, but just want to complain a little bit about all these stupid floor gathering. once people knock on my door so loud that throw me our of my fantasy just to advertise some stupid function.

i don't fit in here, but here also get things i love, people i would love to meet. i didn't tell the following things to anybody. i saw a cutie guys on campus, actually on the school bus. he sat next to me, he looked at me several times before i looked at him, i am sure, but no conversation, and haven't met again. ok, if you think that's my illusion, don't tell me . anyway, it happened yesterday, and i put make-up today, and i will keep doing that for a while i guess...

I remember the suggest you give me, go out of CU, and you will see hong kong is lovely. and i am sure the attitude is always going to work, right?

序

自知不是天生的作家，可儅我想要表達時，自覺文字是最適合的出口，好像伸出手就可以輕輕踫觸一下。

今天看韓寒的文章，他的幽默比黃偉文來得更為自然和原始，如清風般娓娓道來（我拙劣的比喻好像某則“原味”綠茶廣告）。其中隱藏的犀利暗器，在我這種被稱爲“最多用來點綴點綴社會的人”看來，自是不痛不癢。我十分相信他的才氣。儅他申稱博覽群書卻讀不愛名著時，我暗暗自喜；儅他諷刺他人看書只是爲了寫作時，i can't agree more.

他也暗示自己下筆之時，如有神助，我就只能望塵興嘆。常為自己耳邊浮現出支離破碎的文字（醫學上稱之為幻聼）而欣喜若狂，如獲珍寶。記錄他們易如反掌，好像拍照，但是隨拍的照片要怎麽連接成電影？怕是絞盡腦汁也找不到頭緒。

有時覺得，用類似腦圖的東西去代替文章表達思想更爲清晰自由。文字，它暫時只用平行綫的方式連接着，我卻喜歡用sketch book來寫字。生活不需要疆界，但行走一路，不會像水般擴張。在永不交叉的直綫上，其實已經有了足夠任性的空間。

不要華麗的字藻，不要強烈的邏輯，不要一切我習慣的調調，只要你能聽到我的聲音。另辟荒草，暫借一路，望曲徑通幽，呈現我那片青色的湖泊。

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